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My last entry was on May 6, 2010. So what happened since that time and now, you ask?

Well, the Mexico trip was a disaster. To make an extremely long story short, I went down to Mexico after I had been juice feasting for a few days and after much, much traveling (16 hour + days), abruptly changing my diet (still 100% raw, but introduced solids too quickly) and the effects of a dramatically different climate – I felt ridiculously … ungood and came back to Las Vegas on an impromptu flight.

My parents and I drove from Las Vegas, NV to Mazatlan, Sinaloa, Mexico. It was quite a ways. We had a lot of problems along the way and when we finally got there, we were very emotionally drained. I did get to see my grandfather on his deathbed. It was very sad to see, but he did finally pass away the night after I had made it back to Las Vegas. All of the abrupt changes didn’t settle well with me and I was feeling very terrible. Weak. Unhealthy. The quality of the food I had access to was very different from what I was used to. I wasn’t taking care of myself because my energies were much too focused on everything else around me. I ignored my diet, which was a big mistake in the middle of a juice feast. I’ve learned my lesson, to say the least.

I purchased an airplane ticket after 5 days of being in Mexico and flew back to Las Vegas. My grandfather died the night after I left, which left me really emotionally distraught. But at least I got to see him and I was able to say my goodbyes. I’m at peace with that.

However, I did come back home with an awkward feeling deep inside. I didn’t like the fact that I got terribly sick, even though I stayed 100% raw the entire time I was down there. I had felt REALLY SICK. After coming back from Mexico, I decided that I no longer wanted to be 100% raw if it meant I was going to feel as bad as I did if anything messed up my diet at all. I felt like it wasn’t smart. It wasn’t efficient. How could a little trip cause so much trouble for me physically? It wasn’t right. I was convinced that I had to reintroduce cooked foods into my diet.

It’s been about 2 months since my trip to Mexico. Since then, I’ve tried a lot of different things regarding my diet. I stopped caring for a while and at a bunch of “bad food”. Bad food meaning cooked foods, homemade meals from family and friends, but never “bad food” as in fast food. I will never succumb to that. My body has been all over the place since Mexico, but I’m finally coming back around to either 100% or a very high raw diet. To put it simply, it just doesn’t feel the same when I’m eating cooked foods. I don’t feel as fantastic. It never comes close. I always strive for the amazing feeling when I’m raw. Nothing compares to it.

I am still finding my way. I don’t expect to figure it all out any time soon. I’m 23 years old and I still have a long ways to go. Life is an adventure. Things change. People change. I change. Who I am now is definitely not who I will be years from now. I know that. I’m excited about that. I’m learning to go with the flow and enjoy the journey. I’ll eventually find balance. I’m looking forward to it. I am enjoying the mistakes I’m making now. It’s all part of life.

I did go on a water/juice feast for about 4-5 days a few weeks ago, though. Sorry I haven’t recorded it. It was going well and I felt pretty good, but my heart wasn’t in it. I don’t know if I was still just feeling all around down from the Mexico trip (emotionally and physically) or what, but my heart just wasn’t in it. I didn’t care for it. So, I stopped. I broke my fast by having homemade eggs and beans at my parent’s house. Eggs from my uncle’s chickens. It was delicious. All organic, all good quality food.

I did experience something extraordinary that both scared the crap (giggles) out of me and also amazed me, though. I had been on my water/juice feast for about 2-3 days and I decided to finally do an enema. It was  quite an experience. I bought a 2 quart bag and intended on using all of it. I mixed in some garlic in the water for a boost in effectiveness.  I started the enema and about a quarter of the way through, I started to experience very strong stomach pains. I immediately stopped the water flow and just stayed still. Relaxed myself. Tried to wait it out.

The pain was too much, so I just went over to the toilet and let it out. Darn. I refilled the bag and tried it again after about 10-15 minutes. I didn’t understand why I couldn’t do it. It was my first enema ever, so I wasn’t too hard on myself. I tried again and this time got halfway through the 2 quart bag before I experienced the stomach pains again. Just as strong. I stopped the water flow and stood up. I tried to bounce around, massage my stomach. The pain was too much.  I went straight to the toilet.

This is when the extraordinary happened. The moment I started to release, I felt an extreme raise in temperature throughout my ENTIRE body. I instantly started to sweat everywhere. Profusely. Ridiculously. I became extremely dizzy, nauseated and weak. I stayed calm, though, and did breathing exercises. This experience lasted for about 3-5 minutes. I’ll be honest, I was pretty scared. I let Katrina know that I was really not feeling well, just in case. I did, for a few seconds, believe that she might have to take me to the emergency room.

However, after about 3-5 minutes, it just completely disappeared. It just went away. 100%. Immediately after, I felt astoundingly clean. Vibrant. Amazing. It was truly a unique feeling I have never had before. I’m assuming it was a thorough cleanse and that I was very toxic. Whatever it was, it was AMAZING. I kid you not, after my enema I was glowing and my skin looked better than it had ever looked before (and I have pretty good skin to begin with). There was definitely a difference. Definitely some results.

Well, that is what I have been up to since my Mexico trip. I apologize to all of you who were following me and abruptly just didn’t get any updates from me. I had to work through some things and figure some stuff out.

As for this blog being strictly about raw food, I’m not too sure about that anymore. I’m sure I’ll still post some raw food recipes and whatnot, but I have more ideas for this blog. We’ll see where it eventually ends up. Immediate plans are not important to me at the moment. It’ll eventually become what it is meant to become.

It was been a ride! I guess I just wanted to post this up to let everyone know where I currently am in the raw food world and to also let everyone know that it’s normal for everyone to mess up every once in a while. We all do it. Even the really awesome 100% raw fooders who pretend they don’t lose their way sometimes. People change. Change is a natural part of life. I’m starting to see and realize that change – all change – is good. I don’t think there is such a thing as bad change. I look forward to everything that happens and good will always come out of it, even if it doesn’t seem so. I know I will mess up even after this experience. I’m not too hard on myself anymore. I welcome it. I’ll eventually figure it all out. For now, let’s have some fun.

Much love to all!

ps. This post has not been edited due to laziness and to just get this long, overdue post out there. Sorry!

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